Goodbye Hurt

When I used to feel hurt or go through times of sadness and depression, I noticed that sometimes we instinctively create distance between ourselves and Yahuah. I've done it plenty of times myself. But then I found myself sinking deeper into sadness as I created more distance. Instead of running to my maker, I would think that he wouldn't understand or that I had to figure it out on my own. Not the smartest idea, I must admit. Things would start to crumble, and even when they seemed fine on the outside, I wasn't truly healed inside. I've been doing this my whole life, telling myself, 'I'll fix it, I'll fix it.' I created this false reality in my mind, thinking that I was solely responsible and capable of dealing with the pain, trauma, and depression. No one ever told me I had to do it on my own; it's just something I believed. Perhaps you, the person reading this, have reached out and got hurt even more, telling yourself, 'I'll do it on my own.' It took countless heartaches and nights of crying to myself, burying this pit of hurt deep within trying to convince myself (yourself) that you're okay. But then, there comes a breaking point, a situation that finally pushes you over the edge. And in that moment, you realize that all this pain, all this burden you thought you had dealt with, is somehow weighing you down… and let me tell how I had this moment; I was face down, face planted into the floor. I was drowning in my tears, my whole body weighed to the floor as if gravity was keeping me down. I was sick of it. I was like, "Why?" Every tear that was falling was like it was for every single pain and heartache I ever went through. It's like he was telling me to just let it out. I said to myself, "Yah, let me hear your voice. I want to know you're near." But he didn't have to. I felt him deep, deep in my soul. I just felt it. And I could see this light, this speck of joy rising. And I chuckled, thinking, "I'm crying like a hyena right now." And somehow, I feel this unspeakable joy and this feeling, like knowing that everything was actually going to be okay. I prayed a small prayer. I said, "Yah, I give it to you. Take it. That's when I realized the weight of it all, and that I didn't have to carry it alone, I didn’t have to feel this weight within me . My friend, I completely understand where you're coming from. Now here comes the big question. You might be wondering what to do, what's the secret. But guess what? It's not really a secret at all. It's actually quite simple. Just give it all to Yahuah. Take your hand off the wheel and stop trying to control everything. It might feel scary or strange at first, but that's okay. Letting go means no longer playing the role of a savior or trying to fix everything yourself. When you give your anxieties, brokenness, and burdens to Yahuah, something amazing happens. Even though you might still feel pain in your heart, he gives you a new song to sing and shows you a light in the midst of darkness. But here's the catch: it requires a little faith. You have to trust and know that he will take care of you. It's as simple as that. He says, "Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Notice that he didn't say "maybe" or "I might." He said, "I WILL give you rest." And if you wholeheartedly believe in our creator, knowing that He never lies, you are already set free from those burdens and the hurt you carry on your shoulders. So go ahead, find your secret place, shed a few tears, and give it all to him. And then, my friend, don't look back. Trust that he's got your back. You're not alone in this journey. Keep the faith and let Yahuah guide you.